I have no title to this blog!! It is going to be a long and hard day today. the worst day in my life..i guess i could say that. To come into work and find out that your mailbox is flooded with messages that show the mistake i made has affected thousands of people!! Just not what i needed after a night of no sleep!! It is so depressing beyond imagination....never thought i could feel so low!! Sometimes work is depressing....find it useless to even make any effort to make myself feel better. It is hopeless today!!

Furiosity

Getting angry is not good for one's health. I know it only too well cos everytime i get angry I get a headache and my stomach hurts a lot! Inspite of knowing the ill effects anger has on me, i seem to get angry quite quickly! Its takes a lot out of me and it takes a lot of time for me to cool down. I end up badgering myself everytime i get angry. It has become worse of late.

I guess I need some thing to redirect it and make all the josh that comes with it useful. I need to channel it in the right direction.
Ha! just writing about this helps! I am already feeling better :)

Wow!!

Talk about going for a loooong drive spontaneously. Drive we did and guess where we landed!! BANDIPUR baby!! It was awesome! We started at 7 AM on a lazy saturday, went to Mysore irst. On the way had breakfast at Lokaruchi. Did some sutting in Mysore and then decided to go to Bandipur. Perfect weather, some melodious song playing in the background, the mood was perfect.

Anyway we got on to the Safari bus which took us into the reserve. Since we were the first ones in the queue, we got to sit next to the driver and hence the first ones to spot any animal :). It was so calm, peaceful and quiet. Saw lot of cute deer, sambar and lots of peahens an peacocks. Was hoping to see a tiger, have never seen one in the wild! Didnt get to see one this time too :(. But spotted a massive kite, with a huge wing span!! Simply breathtaking. Then the icing on the cake, saw a herd of elephants, with 2 kuttis playing with water, the kinda things you only get to see on discovery channel. Saw lot more deer after that, so many , so many!!

Headed back to bangalore. Was dog tired at the end of the day!

All in all, a great day!! :)
PS: The "WE" in this post is obviously my Hubby and me :)

soliloquoy

I am wide awake at 2.15 AM on the 5th of July, a week before my big day and all I can think of is the fear that is gripping me.



Many incidents in the last few months have reminded me that all I've ever been is selfish, more selfish and most selfish! And I look around to see all these wonderful, amazing people who care so so much about me and I am not even able to repay them even with kind and understanding words.



I am afraid of hurting someone in the process of protecting myself! I become extremely defensive and helpless. I feel like a child who has been protected all these years and suddenly there is responsibility thrust on me....i dunno if i can handle it! And its not like I havent tried sharing this feeling with someone, I have but everybody has their own problems and I dont wanna be a burden on them, not to mention that the words simply wont flow from my mouth!



I want to be strong.....I just hope GOD can give me that when it is needed the most!!

Fear

What do I do when I am afraid of so many things at the same time? Stand up and face it? Easier said than done, but I can try!

Coo

How many times have I heard a cuckoo cooing but till this dayI haven't been able to spot even one!! I know they look like crows but if one looks in the direction of the sweet voice one wud expect to see the creature behind the beautiful voice. I am very surprised by this.

Time to spot a cuckoo is what i think! :)

Huh!!??

Today's fortune:
You and your wife will be happy in your life together.

Apparently my fortune for the day according to orkut!! :-S They could have atleast written some code to make the wife husband based on my sex! Ohkay....i am asking for too much arent i?

Today was one of the BAD days for me! Bad traffic everywhere! Got totally irritated. Doesnt help if ppl wanna talk to you when i am like this or they crack some silly jokes when u r in no mood for one!!! Sense the tone ppl!!!

Mood: frustrated!